I don't think I've ever been more worried, nervous, undecided, and excited in my life.

I'm actually considering signing a lease for an apartment even though I haven't received my acceptance letter from Gainesville State yet. If I wait for my acceptance letter, I'll lose my spot in signing the lease. I also have a job interview on Wednesday which would greatly help with my rent. I fit all of the qualifications for Gainesville State and don't see why I wouldn't get in. I have no idea if this would be a huge mistake if I sign or not, but I really just want to take the risk. I would really really really love to live in Athens with one of my roommates being my life-long best friend and to finally catch up at school and bring my GPA up, and I would love to be a sales associate at Bath and Body Works. I can just see all of these puzzle pieces joining together, but signing this lease before either one of these things is concrete (regardless of the fact they are EXTREMELY likely) makes me just a tad bit nervous. I've gone back and forth on whether this is the right time to make this decision or if I should wait another year and just live at home and see where I am... Both choices are risks for many different reasons. My question is which one do I take?

If you have any kind of advice on this situation please feel free to share.

I can't honestly tell you what my favorite part of Easter weekend was. Baking Chelsea's purple and green gumball machine ( that rhymes :) )birthday cake in the supposedly dangerous weather Friday night, skating at Sparkles for Chelsea's birthday in 90's clothing Saturday afternoon, egging our boyfriends' family's front yard with easter eggs between midnight and 1:00 AM Saturday night, Easter service Sunday morning, or taking a nice sunny drive down to Macon by myself to see family and watch all my little cousins hunt eggs. It was probably one of the most enjoyable Easters I've had. Aside from all those times that my best friend Amanda and her family always joined us and we always had that wonderful Stouffer's Macaronni an Cheese. Mmmm. Random memory. I DO miss Easter egg hunts I will say. I think one Easter when we're grown up and getting our kids together to hunt Easter eggs, we should conduct an Easter egg hunt for the adults too :P

Anyway, so the egging the yard process. Every year our boyfriends' family eggs front yards by covering the yard in plastic easter eggs with candy inside. We thought about how they do at least 3 houses every year, and yet, no one has ever tried to egg THEIR yard. So, Chelsea and I took on the liberty of putting that plan into action, and after many a fright that we might have just completely messed things up, the whole prank was actually a success. I could have sworn at certain times that we/I had just blew it and they knew we were up to something, but sure enough, they had no idea :) We were super excited.

It was seriously one of the most entertaining and eventful weekends I've had in a while.I wish I could go back and do it all over again.

Last night though was SUPER nice. Sam and I went to IHOP for coffee after not having seen each other for maybe like...a year and a half. The most comforting thing was even though we hadn't seen each other for that long and hadn't talked as much as we liked in between, we could still talk for hours about pretty much everything. I love that type of friend, that even after not being around each other for a long time and not talking much, nothing changes at all, really. So nice, so wonderful.

This week I really need to get more job applications in and get on my Gainesville application so I can get school back on track. I've HATED being out of school. Then, hopefully on Friday, I can spend some time with Marcus and then spend the night with Amanda up in Athens. Gah. Have you ever thought about just how much we all adore and thrive on friendship? I'm super thankful for every single friend I have. It's highly likely that that includes you :)

Oh my goodness, we are just SO excited! The family is in Dahlonega today. We visited the kennel that we're getting the new puppy from, and we got to visit a few a LOT of the golden retrievers there. There were a few outside and one of the boys outside named Harvey was so handsome and so fun and friendly and we're hoping to get one of his puppies that will be born about a month from now. The inside kennel was absolutely hilarious. There were so many barking dogs in there (the kennel also serves as a doggy hotel for those who need to board their dogs :P ) and they were all barking for attention. You couldn't hear anything! They were all cute and screaming "play with me!", and I wanted nothing more than to stay forever and play with every single one of them. I love Golden Retrievers so much! When we finally bring our new puppy home it will have been very well worth the wait.

I'm so glad it's finally Easter weekend this weekend. There's so much to look forward to!

Healthy eating

I have finally begun to start focusing on eating healthy! Tonight I made some parmesan crusted zucchini crisps(I'm not usually a fan of zucchini, but I like it fried so I tried this!) which were slices of zucchini tossed in olive oil and then covered in bread crumbs and parmesan cheese and it was very yummy. I also added some whole wheat pasta on the side. Tomorrow I plan on making this really yummy looking salad with strawberries and mozarella cheese. I'm probably going to add some almonds to it too. I like weird, fruity salads like that. Has anyone ever tried that pecan crusted chicken salad with the mandarin oranges in it at O'Charley's? Heaven in salad form, I tell you! But yeah, I saved a lot of healthy recipes to my computer that I'm going to try making. The zucchini crisps was one of them. I'm really trying to make changing my eating lifestyle an enjoyable task. It's worked out so far! :) Who knew there were so many healthy and delicious foods and recipes out there? I commend whoever thinks up these things! :P

By the way...

My blog has a new look. I was just looking around at templates and this one happened to be called "Lindsay Street". I figured it was necessary that I use it. :)

I have been listening to "Before the Throne of God Above" by Selah over and over and I think it is one of the most beautiful songs with perfect words to describe a life with Christ. I just had to share. If you've never heard it, search for it on YouTube. Absolutely wonderful.

I am having a rough time with job hunting. It was one of my biggest struggles last summer, and I still kick myself over it. I think because I was so let down last summer, I've been kind of worried to complete and turn in my forms right now. I've already gotten my hopes up at a desperate tone of "oh yeah, we're hiring" and then been let down when the manager told me he had enough employees. That seemed to be the entirety of my summer last year. Being told by one employee that the business I had applied to was hiring and then told by the manager each time I inquired about my application that he had everyone he needed and he'd "give me a call" if that changed. It seemed like everyone around me was doing well in the labor and finance departments, and for some reason I couldn't find my place in it. It also felt like I had so many people on the sidelines rooting for me, and I always feel like I'm letting them down. Of course, after I go through all this and feel guilty and incompetent I always realize that wealth in this society does not define my life or myself as a person. The song I mentioned up there does. Every single word of it. If I just remembered that every single time I struggle, things would be a lot easier, and I wouldn't post about this issue for the umpteenth time :P I have wonderful friends who have been there and listened while I vented about it countless times, and I hope they know how grateful I am.

One of the things I take for granted is how fortunate I am. I wonder what society would be like if every single person thought about what others have...or don't have. Especially those in other countries who might not even know what some of the luxuries we have ARE. Including this blog! Through this blog I am communicating my thoughts to who knows how many people, and yet there are people my age in other places who don't even have one person to confide in. It's baffling. I'm pretty sure my energy is better off spent praying for those people than worrying if I get a certain job or not. At least I have the opportunity, right?

Anyway, there's a little peek inside my head right now. It's kind off all over the place. :)

I got my hair cut this morning, a wendy's chicken BLT salad this afternoon, and I have a most likely wonderful practice tonight to attend. I'd say it's a good day. :)

Love to everyone! <3