I have been listening to "Before the Throne of God Above" by Selah over and over and I think it is one of the most beautiful songs with perfect words to describe a life with Christ. I just had to share. If you've never heard it, search for it on YouTube. Absolutely wonderful.

I am having a rough time with job hunting. It was one of my biggest struggles last summer, and I still kick myself over it. I think because I was so let down last summer, I've been kind of worried to complete and turn in my forms right now. I've already gotten my hopes up at a desperate tone of "oh yeah, we're hiring" and then been let down when the manager told me he had enough employees. That seemed to be the entirety of my summer last year. Being told by one employee that the business I had applied to was hiring and then told by the manager each time I inquired about my application that he had everyone he needed and he'd "give me a call" if that changed. It seemed like everyone around me was doing well in the labor and finance departments, and for some reason I couldn't find my place in it. It also felt like I had so many people on the sidelines rooting for me, and I always feel like I'm letting them down. Of course, after I go through all this and feel guilty and incompetent I always realize that wealth in this society does not define my life or myself as a person. The song I mentioned up there does. Every single word of it. If I just remembered that every single time I struggle, things would be a lot easier, and I wouldn't post about this issue for the umpteenth time :P I have wonderful friends who have been there and listened while I vented about it countless times, and I hope they know how grateful I am.

One of the things I take for granted is how fortunate I am. I wonder what society would be like if every single person thought about what others have...or don't have. Especially those in other countries who might not even know what some of the luxuries we have ARE. Including this blog! Through this blog I am communicating my thoughts to who knows how many people, and yet there are people my age in other places who don't even have one person to confide in. It's baffling. I'm pretty sure my energy is better off spent praying for those people than worrying if I get a certain job or not. At least I have the opportunity, right?

Anyway, there's a little peek inside my head right now. It's kind off all over the place. :)

I got my hair cut this morning, a wendy's chicken BLT salad this afternoon, and I have a most likely wonderful practice tonight to attend. I'd say it's a good day. :)

Love to everyone! <3