You said "I Am"

It has been a LONG time since I have posted!

I had to share an experience from yesterday. Despite the wind being a bit strong and a bit chilly, it was gorgeous outside. I came home to Snellville Tuesday night to see my sister's pre-LGPE band concert, and as I was heading back to Athens in the morning, I had Nichole Nordeman's "Greatest Hits" album playing. I've known a couple of her songs for a while, and thought she was beautiful, so I bought the album off itunes and burned a CD to listen to during my trip. As I listened to her gorgeous music, there were two songs that came on that just pulled at my heart, and my stomach. One of them, talking about each season as it comes and goes and how God is in those seasons. After noticing the song and what it was saying, I started it back over. I pushed aside everything I was thinking about that was about me. Worries about school, and my stress over the fact that, yes, I was heading to a meeting with an advisor over the fact that I'm on academic probation this semester (Yes, I will raise my hand high and tell you I've been slipping in school and am meeting with someone to get myself back on track, cause that's what I need), all the wonder of if I'm singing this well enough and could I maybe perform it someday, somewhere, just all the thoughts about me and myself, I just pushed them aside. I listened to every word of this song and let each one flow through my entire being. Of course, I couldn't close my eyes because I was driving, and that is dangerous. :P Of course, it was a good thing I couldn't because as I heard these words while looking ahead of me down the road (it is a simple straight shot through the middle of nowhere from Athens to Snellville) I started seeing that even though the grass was dead and the trees aren't bearing leaves, this world is a beautiful creation that God has made us to dwell in for the time being. He planted those trees, and laid down the grass, and spread the sky above us and gave us this world, despite the fact that evil shows itself here as well, to live in and enjoy and serve His name in. I couldn't get over how gorgeous everything was, and suddenly all those thoughts that I had to shove aside started to calm and fizzle out and I was just in awe and also knew that God was there in that passenger seat with me. It was a wonderful drive with Him!

Another song I came across a little later is titled "I AM" and it is precious, and sweet, and beautiful, and I'll admit I cried the first time I heard it. God is SO good and so faithful, and if you don't know Him, you really should!! I will share the lyrics at the bottom of this post to both songs. Music is such a powerful thing.

I know this is pretty deep and confessional, but I just really wanted to share! I hope that each and every one of you are blessed this week! <3


I encourage you to search on YouTube and listen to these!

Nichole Nordeman, "Every Season"

Every evening sky, an invitation
To trace the patterned stars
And early in July, a celebration
For freedom that is ours
And I notice You
In children's games
In those who watch them from the shade
Every drop of sun is full of fun and wonder
You are summer

And even when the trees have just surrendered
To the harvest time
Forfeiting their leaves in late September
And sending us inside
Still I notice You when change begins
And I am braced for colder winds
I will offer thanks for what has been and what's to come
You are autumn

And everything in time and under heaven
Finally falls asleep
Wrapped in blankets white, all creation
Shivers underneath
And still I notice you
When branches crack
And in my breath on frosted glass
Even now in death, You open doors for life to enter
You are winter

And everything that's new has bravely surfaced
Teaching us to breathe
What was frozen through is newly purposed
Turning all things green
So it is with You
And how You make me new
With every season's change
And so it will be
As You are re-creating me
Summer, autumn, winter, spring

"I AM"

Pencil marks on a wall
I wasn't always this tall,
You scattered some monsters from beneath my bed,
You watched my team win,
You watched my team lose,
You watched when my bicycle went down again,

And When I was weak unable to speak,
still I could call You by name,
and I said “Elbow healer, Superhero,
come if You can,” and You said “I am”

Only 16, life is so mean, what kind of curfew is at ten PM
You saw my mistakes, You watched my heart break
Heard when I swore I’d never love again

When I was weak, unable to speak,
still I could call You by name,
and I said “Heart-ache Healer, Secret-keeper,
be my Best Friend” and You said “I am”

You saw me wear white, by pale candlelight,
I said forever to what lies ahead
two kids and a dream, with kids that can scream
too much it might seem when it’s two AM

when I am weak, unable to speak,
still I will call You by name.
“Oh Shepherd, Savior, Pasture-maker,
hold on to my hand,” and You say “I am.”

The winds of change,
And circumstance blow in and all around
us so we find a foothold that’s familiar,
And bless the moments that we feel You nearer
Life had begun, I was woven and spun,
You let the angels dance around the throne, who can say when,
But they’ll dance again, when I am free and finally headed home


I will be weak, unable to speak,
still I will call You by name
“Creator, Maker, Life-sustainer,
Comforter, Healer, My Redeemer,
Lord and King, Beginning and
the End, I am, yes, I am.”